What part of my own greatness am I not seeing?
Just this morning this question, “What part of my own greatness am I not seeing?”, was thrown at me, and it left me flabbergasted.Why do we have our biggest critics? Right now I’m sort of overhauling my life in this process called growing back. I have to question everything I do to figure out whether it aligns with my new values and direction. As my painful as it feels I have to let go some of it.
The toughest bit about letting go are the voices in your head. They ask you whether you’re worth it, are you good enough, are you willing to lose out on all the fun, do you have the right qualifications, do you have the experience it needs, then the big voice concludes; you’ll never make it.
Yesterday I found a way to silence the tiny voices in my head. You have to kill the big voice. The big voice is the one that makes the final decision. This decision is made from fear, insecurities or doubts that cloud your head. The big voice will command you to call him when you know very well he’s not good enough for you; the big voice will tell you to send the job application tomorrow when you know you’re good enough for the job. This it does after consulting the small voices that make everything about you seem so small. The size of your head, the length of your hair, the pitch of your voice….shut up small voices.
If you want to silence the voices in your head listen to the positive things people say about you and believe them. Write it somewhere; have a love jar where you make notes about your strengths and values and drop them in and read them when the voices get noisy.
When people say you’re beautiful, intelligent, hard working, entertaining, a great cook, a great mother, a great artist, a blessed man or woman. Don’t justify, don’t minimize it, don’t question it. Take it as it is and run with it.
The other way I’ve found helpful is to advise someone in a similar situation. When you feel unworthy, broke, unliked; find someone in a similar situation and advise them. Then take your own advise and run with it.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”